So I have a blog...

Like many things in my life over the past month (cleaning the house, cooking dinner, wearing makeup...), my blog has been very neglected. It has taken a back seat to a blue-eyed little man with patchy blonde hair. This man pretty much dominates my every waking moment.

It's been almost a month since Camden joined the "outside world". Sometimes it's hard to believe it's only been a month. I think back to our first night home from the hospital. I stared into the red, angry, screaming face of my son every hour on the hour that night and wondered if every night was going to be like that. I think of all the nights he slept on my chest or next to me on the couch because it was the only way I could get him to sleep. I think of the way breast feeding was such a challenge in the beginning. I think of all of these things and I realize- wow, how far we've come in one month.

But, in a way, the month has flown by too. My life pre-baby seems so foreign to me now. There are still so many times that I find myself just watching him sleep and thinking to myself, We created that little person. It's still surreal. I wonder if it will always be.

So, eventually I will start blogging regularly again. And cooking dinner. And becoming anal about cleaning my house. Those things will come with time. For now, I'm just going to soak in all of these moments-- both the good times & the trying times-- with my little guy.

PS- Below is a picture from my 29th birthday gathering a few days ago. Last year, on my 28th birthday, I was getting ready to have surgery. I know what I wished for when I blew out those candles last year. He's sitting in my arms-- both right now and in the picture below. What a difference a year makes.