To You

To You,

I don't know you yet, but I already love you. The last year and a half has been really difficult- and extremely emotionally draining- but I know it will feel like it didn't even happen once I hold you in my arms. I don't know who you are. I don't know when you will come. I don't know what you will look like. And I don't know by what means you will arrive. But I do know this: you will get here one day, and you will be loved unconditionally. You will make your father and me better people. We will learn by loving you. We won't be perfect parents, but we will always put you first. You won't ever doubt how much you are loved, I can promise you that. This journey has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through but I won't regret the experience. You are worth every night I've cried myself to sleep. You are worth every day I've felt like I was ready to give up. You are worth the crushing feeling of disappointment that I have felt far too often over the last year. There's a lot I don't know, and a lot about this experience I will never fully understand. But I do know that I love you. And I can't wait to be your mom.