That was Wednesday's hCG level. That's an 89% increase in 48 hours. And, according to my doctor, that's an "appropriate increase". I have so many phrases swimming around in my poor, overwhelmed mind: less than ideal, appropriate increase, viable pregnancy, ectopic pregnancy. It's been a lot to take in. Dr. P's take on my latest results? He told me it's great and encouraging news but that I'm not in the clear yet. We have to see a gestational sac in my uterus at my ultrasound next Thursday. In the meantime, I'm pretty numb. I've been on such an unbelievable roller coaster ride of emotions over the past week and I am terrified of getting my hopes up again. I'm living life in limbo right now.
To You,
Hang on tight in there. You can do this; I know you can.
I love you already,
Mommy
11 comments:
No fair making me cry at work...
You are in my thoughts.
Oh Kerri, your letter to your child brought me to tears. I am still praying for you and Matt and your little one. You deserve for this to stick! I love you! Carli
Just saw your blog from Hoping for our Peanut. I am so sorry you are going through this crazy time right now. Funky beta number do stink (I had a similar situation in October, but my number never got over 148!). I'll be thinking about you and praying for a great ultrasound experience next week. Hang in there!
Sending Sticky Vibes your way!
By the way have you heard of FertilityFriend.com?
I will be praying! What an incredibley stressful few days you've had I can't even imagine being on that emotional roller coaster. Hopefully you'll get some answers soon.
I have been on FF for a year now. I find it helpful when I am trying to find the answer to something, however, I get annoyed with some of the drama that comes on the boards. When you said you were having a hard time finding someone who had info on ectopic pregos, it reminded me of FF! I though you might find some answers there.
I don't think I will be renewing my membership when mine expires. I like charting, but that's about all I use it for now!
WOW...this turned into a long comment! SORRY! :)
Your lil bean will grow!! I had crazy all over the place betas...after IVF...up, then it dropped, then back up sky high....and I am now sitting here looking at amazing 6month old triplets!! Congrats momma!
I saw your comment on Hoping for a Peanut and just wanted to come over and offer support. First, I'm so sorry for your limbo, I know how hard that is! With our first IVF, I actually had a drop between two of my BETAs (a drop of 1, but still, it should have doubled, not dropped a point)! I was told that 1) we were losing the baby or 2) we had vanishing twin and the BETA would catch back up as the remaining twin produced HCG. Sure enough, vanishing twin. I now have a very healthy four year old son and when we did his first ultrasound you could see our twin that didn't make it. Do not give up hope. Vanishing twin is very, very common and will mess w/your BETAs. It really sounds like a possibility in your case. Wishing you nothing but the best, hang in there!
Thanks for making me cry...again. :)
I know we have to wait until the ultrasound, but I have faith that this story will have a very happy ending. I'm going to continue praying, hoping, wishing, and crossing fingers & toes.
Try not to drive yourself crazy before Thursday. :)Love you.
well hi, kerri. im sorry youre having hcg troubles. in a perfect world, they would all rise the right way and we wouldnt have to worry!
the doc never directly said why mine rose slowly. my gut tells me we lost a twin. this is my first pregnancy, so i have nothing to compare it to. im guessing its the same for you.
i wish you the best of luck at your ultrasound. with that second set of numbers being so great, i can almost guarantee youll see a baby or two. :)
try not to stress too much. i know its easier said than done, but it wont help the situation. cant wait to hear about the ultrasound!
Oh I will be praying for you!!
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